There he is. With his smug little girlfriend, in his smug outfit; which is way too relaxed for someone like him to come pick me up in. Both of them in their smug little 'lovey dovey' world. I could have that, if I wanted, which I don't and never will.
I don't even want to be here right now, I would much rather be sitting in Florida with my grandma and grandpa. That's where I usually spend my summers, not in boring o'l Dover, England. Lucky me Dover is having a heat wave; so the water won't freeze my ass off.
I look at Collin with his model like girlfriend holding a sign that says my name. Thank God he's my ex step brother, and not related to me in anyway.
I grew up with Collin as an older brother for 12 years. He and his mother were my family, but now he's just like an older ass hole cousin once removed. I haven't seen him or his mom Diane in few years, but he hasn't changed a bit since I last saw him. Oh wait I think he got taller, and gained a few pounds.
Diane I'd the only mother figure I have had in my life, so naturally we are close. Her son; not so much. She and my grandmother have been raising me to be a 'proper' young woman, but honestly since her and my father split it'd been mostly Nana and I personally. Diane still calls and Skypes and FaceBooks and stuff, but Nana is just closer to me now.
But after a long talk with Darrell; aka my father, they both decided it would be good for me to come visit her and Collin before I start my senior year in high school. So instead of being on my last trip to Florida and seeing my beach friends for the last time, I'm stuck in Dover with my ex mom and stuck up ass of an ex step brother.
The only good thing about Dover is that in my research looking up 'fun' things to do here is that; it's literally the coast of the English channel. I am a distance swimmer, so my goal while I'm in Dover will be to swim to France. And maybe while I'm in France I could have real French food.
I walk over to Collin and smack the sign he is holding out of his grip. Collin's bottle blonde girlfriend looks away from him and gives me the dirtiest look as I stare at them with one leg stretched out and both hands on my hips.
"Excuse you." She says in her British accent. In my mind I sneer a dirty remark at her in a fake accent.
For a moment I'm tempted to sign something in ASL. I decide against it seeing as I will have to go home with Collin and this girl. So instead I ignore her completely and smack Collin on the arm to get his attention. His eyes dart from the sign on the ground and looks at the girl at his side before his mint green eyes land on my face.
I resist the urge to blush, but I fail to hide my anger to the girl; as her presents irritates me. Collins face turns from shock to a big smile, which then turns to be a smirk as he shakes his hand loose from the girls and pulls me into a hug. A very tight hug.
If he wasn't squeezing my arms I would probably hug him back, but as luck would have it he is. I know in my heart I'm a bad person as I inhale his scent and close my eyes for a moment thinking of when we were younger. I release my breath and his scent as Collin steps back from his bear hug.
"Damn Ramona, you've grown like a whole two feet!" Collin laughs and wraps his arm around blonde beauty.
"Oh, Ramona this is Kayla! She's my girlfriend." he laughs as she pulls him close to her.
"Hi." I say flatly. "Where is Diane? She said she would be here to pick me up."
"Mum is working but she'll be at the Regency by the time we get there." He smiles putting his free arm around one of my bags to carry them.
I trail behind the two love birds as they giggle and talk. Collin angers me as he pays no attention to me and leaves me with a rolling bag that is twice the size of the bag he is carrying. I feel like smacking him again, but this will do noting but make him laugh and have his girlfriend be more bitchy.
Kayla's eyes look back at me as we walk out of Heathrow Airport and I feel a chill run up spine either from being in London or from her 'Bitch Please' look Kayla has sent me. I give a plain 'What the hell do you want' look right back. She rolls her eyes and kisses Collin's neck. He responds with a laugh and kisses her on her cheek.
I freely show me disgust with their affections as Kayla looks back at me again. She smirks at me. I give her the finger and she gives me a disgusted look and turns back to Collin as we reach the car; I quietly laugh at her. Collin unlocks the car and opens the trunk and puts the bag he is carrying into it. As Kayla gets into the car I lean against my luggage as I wait for Collin to put it in the trunk as well. He comes to get it. And looking me straight in the eye he says.
"I'm sorry."
Then as he reaches the luggage's handle he leans in and kisses me on the cheek discreetly. I blush, but he doesn't see it because he lifts the luggage up so he can put it into the trunk. I thank god he didn't see as I go over to drive's passenger door and open it and sit inside. For a moment Kayla and I are left alone in the car, and as I hear and feel the trunk close Kayla turns to me.
"He told me. And if you try anything with him, I'll fucking cut you." She says plainly. Then her face configures into a fake smile.
"So you have a boyfriend?" She asks in a happy peppy voice, but her other words ring in my ear for so ling I don't even notice that Collin is in the car.
"I did, but we broke it off because he switched schools." I blankly say.
It's a lie though. I haven't had a real boyfriend in a couple years, and the last guy I dated stopped dating me because he could tell I didn't really like him.
I'm ok with that because I feel like I don't have enough time for guys, or enough heart to put out for someone. Not to mention I really couldn't careless about some stupid high school relationship thing.
As we pull onto the motorway it starts to drizzle. And then Kayla's questions start to begin,
"Oh that sucks, so what school do you go to?" She asks still fake smiling.
"Jay Flinch High School. I'm a senior." I say. I look at the Safire color gem on my class ring. I always wanted a real Safire ring.
"That's neat. What do you plan on doing while you're in town?" She presses on.
"Not dying of boredom. And maybe get a swim in or two." I laugh in my head as I think 'swim as far away from this place as possible.'
"Well it's nice and warm for you to do that." She laughs and Collin joins in. I remember about the 'heat' wave.
I pull out my phone and earphones as Kayla says something to Collin about going to see a movie later that night.
The music starts to play Claire De Lune as I look out the window and watch the other cars around us drive. The rain starts to pour down in buckets and my eyelids grow heavy. I slowly fall asleep to the melody and to the rhythmic patter of rain droplets.
"I'm sorry." I hear Collin echo in my ears as I feel the rain drench me from head to toe. And without warning a passionate kiss clashes with me lips, I allow myself to wrap my arms around the stranger and kiss them back.
As we release our kiss I squint my eyes through the rain to see it's Collin. But as I wipe the rain from my face I see that it is really Kayla. I'm blink a few times, but she does not turn back unto Collin, she only gross taller and closer. On my last blink she is in my face, smirk and all.
"I told you not to do anything." She says and before I know it she pulls a knife and I feel it slide into the left side of my body under my rib cage.
I don't feel any pain but I still fall to my knees as blood soaks the dress I'm wearing. The rain water quickly becomes red, and I am suddenly on my hands gasping for air. And two pairs of legs appear before me; I lift my head up and squint to see perfectly dry Kayla and Collin. Kayla puts one arm around Collin's chest and leans her head on his arm.
He wraps the arm she is leaning on around her shoulders and uses his other arm to reach over to grab her face to pull her into a kiss. My head darts down and my wet hair covers my view of the two. My heat pounds hard as I look at the red water around me. I pull the knife out of my body and look at it; it's practically sparkling clean, not a spot of my blood.
A hand touches my chin and I am forced to look up at Collin's face. He smiles as he moves the wet hair from my face with his free hand that isn't under my chin. Even as the rain falls on him he is still warm and dry, untouched my the red water I'm creating.
"I lied." He says.
My eyes burst open. I look in front of me and see that Kayla is asleep. In my ears 'Backseat Serenade' is almost over. I take out one earphone and look at Collin who is driving with his fist clinching the wheel and his jaw shut tight. The radio is playing some random song that I don't know and can barley hear because it's on a low volume. Collin mumbles something that sound like 'fuck' and a few other words.
"Are we almost there?" I ask horsily.
"Um, yeah." he says and reaches to turn up the music but stops as his hand almost reaches the nob. "We should go to London on Saturday."
I don't say anything because it feels like a demand rather than a suggestion. I look out the window as the silence fills the car in every way possible. The ocean beyond the pavement and cars looks beautiful and I can't wait to walk along the beach next to it. I turn back to Collin who is still tense as he drives and waits foe my answer.
"Yah. That sounds like a good idea." I say unenthusiastically.
He loosens his grip on the wheel after I say that. He looks in the review mirror to look at me and I see the left corner or his mouth reach up into a half smile. I roll my eyes at his ego inflated stupid face. He pulls the other half up to match and laughs at me; which is way worse than a half smile smirk thing.
"So how has your life been without mum and I?" He asks eye now looking at the road again.
"Um, quiet actually." I say jokingly.
The was a year long period of a lot of yelling going on in the house before Darrell and Diane finally broke it off. I would hide in my room and listen to music as loud as possible to drown out the fights. Some time Collin would come in the room, after yelling at them to stop fighting, and he would hold me in a tight hug until I stopped crying.
"Ha, that's good. You like your new house?" He laughs at my joke and continues with another question.
"Yah, the weird thing is that it's bigger than the house we lived in; it's even got a pool." I say and instantly think about sitting by the pool with my best friends drinking cold tea.
"I guess that would be because Darrell is making more money with his promotion than he was when we lived together." Collin laughs. "So anything other than that wild hair colour change?"
"It's not wild. It washes out, and yes I really did grow like a foot and a half. Oh and I got a new ear piercing and my hair is now to like my butt when it's straight." I say and reach for one of my long light brown waves that is a bright red at the tips. I make it into a mustache on my face and stick out my tongue at Collin.
"When are you going to cut it? And why'd you get a new piercing?" He asks lightly laughing at me with a smirk.
"I'm never going to cut my hair shorter than where it is at right now. And as for the piercing I was going through a rebellious faze with Darrell and Nana." I laugh and twirl the strand of my hair.
"I would have loved to have seen that! I bet Darrell was pissed with you! I remember being ground for a week when I got my piercing when I was 16, god I was so mad at mum and Darrell for being mad about it." Collin laughs think about the past groundings he has had.
I remember all that week he just came in my room and played games with my on my game cube. He didn't really like them because they were all girlie; the only game that really appealed to him was Mario Kart but I always won so he didn't want to play it. We had fun that week and even though he never played video games with me after that week I still bet I could beat him at Mario Kart still.
"Actually no, but mainly because he knows I was going through a rough time. After you and Diane left I kinda lost all my friends,"
I sigh "and that got me even more depressed and then I started messing with the wrong people, but I was only that way for about six months."
"That sucks, I'm sorry all that happened because of me." He says.
"It wasn't all you I was sad about Collin. I had other people I cared about too, they left me way worse than you did. I knew you were leaving, I didn't have a clue about the others." I say as my cheeks heat up with anger and my eye swell with tears.
"I'm just saying sorry Ramona, no need to be bitchy." He says grip the wheel in fist again.
"Fuck Collin I don't need or want your lame apology. It happened years ago and I got over it, I've had plenty of guys since you've left." I say angrily.
"Fine." He replies flatly.
I grab my earphones and aggressively plug them back in my ears as 'Dance Dance' by the Fall Out Boys ends and 'Some Where in Neverland' by The Downtown Fiction starts. I look at my phone and look on my FaceBook and see all the fun beach things my friends are doing; thankfully they are saying how much they miss me.
I take a quick snap of the view outside the window as Collin drives. I put it on FaceBook and Instagram and Twitter showing everyone the I've arrived in Dover some what safe in a way.
I wouldn't say I'm popular, I wouldn't even go as far to say I'm cool in anyway. But I guess I'm nice and I connect with people in a way that makes them feel comfortable. So because of that I have a decent number of friends on FaceBook a pretty good number of people on Twitter and Instagram, not enough to make me popular or anything.
I get a tweet my friend: '@Ellis_DipMe5 Come back to me my darling @RamonaKnows'
I laugh out loud and I feel Collin's glare on me as I tweet back at her.
'@Ellis_DipMe5 I wish I could be anywhere else but here with cocky grumpy face!'
I purposely point Collin out that way because I know he follows me on twitter and that it will offend him.
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